A Year Off From Blogging

 

I didn’t exactly mean to, but I took a year off from blogging. Somehow a few weeks and months turned into a full year. Some of it was weariness. Life exploded into a new kind of busy after the arrival of our sweet baby Boaz. Part of it was feeling unable to share the weight on our hearts through the early stages of adoption, to be as open as I’ve trained myself to be. In hindsight, I wish I had just written blog posts, but never published them. Instead, I left a lot unsaid, unexpressed, un-shared and isolated myself & our story.

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To All the Different Mamas

Motherhood Quote ~ Positive Mamas ~ Mom journey through grief & adoption ~ Blog by Bubblegum Sass

Love to all the mamas 💜

I continue to learn about the different kinds of mamas in the world. Those waiting to be mamas, those that have sacrificed their own motherhood to give their child life, the mamas to little angels they never got to meet. Motherhood journeys are vast & varied.

I recognize that Mother’s Day is not always happy. It can be really hard for some. There is sadness to that day for me. We buried my own mom two years ago, on May 12th. I miscarried for the finally time on Mother’s Day of that year. I said goodbye to any chance of having another biological child. I would never again be pregnant.

And I could not have gone through any of those experiences without all the other mamas in my life, supporting & loving on me.

And here we are, praying for some unknown mama to sacrifice her own motherhood so that we can give her child a life in our family. Adoption journeys come from a place of loss. I never want to forget that. The brave birth mom who chooses this path, will have all my heart & respect.

Motherhood. What a complicated & blessed thing.

When What You Least Expect, Happens

An alternate title might be Taking the road less traveled, even if you really don’t want to, because that’s what it feels like my hubby and I are doing.

We started this journey to have a family over six years ago. In that time, I’ve had a highly invasive abdominal myomectomy, two miscarriages and one rough c-section resulting, finally, in a healthy baby boy. Truly, we are blessed with our little Sammy, but we’ve longed for so very much more.

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